him: don't say that. You cn always sms me.
(n here i m thinking... WAT THE FUCK?!)
me: bt isnt it true D? I dun hear frm u at all. Yes, i cn always sms, bt no, u never reply. Sumtimes i wonder wat xactly is happening n if u even like me the way u n others say/assume.
N as expected he din reply. Wen i was abt to send this msg, i noe, this will totally step on his head lah. he's an xtremely sensitive person, i tink the most sensitive i've met in life, n he's a guy summore! any single werd anybody utter to him is always taken as a negative remark, n den he will feel pushed, cornered, trapped, bla bla bla.. n den start acting like an oxy-moron. trust me the whole community at my werkplace noes abt this n his perangai. heck, they noe him way before i do. so of coz they noe his attitude. n dats y i keep getting ppl saying, he's attitude is like datlah, u must be patient. n this comes frm ppl who wants to matchmake me n him, from ppl who doesnt even noe wats on, frm ppl who noes he likes me.
so wen he din reply i m thinking 'hmm.... so typical of u...' n den 3 hrs later... i received a text, wif his name on it. so i went..."okkkkkkkkkkkk kin.. u r soooooooooo getting it... he bloody took 3 hrs to tink of the best payback issit?"
him: i want frenship. u haf been led on by others thinking dat i want more. is it my fault den?
(aft reading his msg, i wanted to laugh my ass off man! wat the fuck is he talking abt? frenship? i was like... god D, cn u be more lame then dat, n more egoistic den dat too?)
me: no, its nt. Bt i'd appreciate it if u made it clear frm the start n mayb even clarify tings wif the others.coz on ur part, u haf been giving mixed signals.
him: well, now u noe. as for the others, i dun c the need to explain to them anything. You'll tell them everything anyway.
N DIS WAS THE PART I GOT SUPER BLOODY FUCKING PISSED OFF! WAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?!!!! I'LL TELL ALL OF THEM ANYWAY??????!!!!!!! THIS IS WAT HAPPENS WEN U HAF A KAYPOH COMMUNITY LIVING WIF U N HER COMMUNITY MEMBERS R LINKED WIF THE COMMUNITY MEMBERS IN MY SCHOOL. THEY SPREAD, THEY ASSUME N THEY SPREAD IT AGAIN, N YES, I M TO B BLAMED AT THE END OF THE DAY.
WAT SHIT, I ALWAUS M BLAMED AT THE END OF THE DAY. N ITS FUCKING NT FAIR.
me: wat the hell r u trying to imply by saying that i'll tell dem everything?!!!! its unfair of u to be judging n accusing me! wat? u think i saja2 menjaja2 crita psl u n me?! if its anything, i m the one who wants it to be low profile! u r the ones who keep telling the teachers shit stuff n putting me at a spot!
him: well, then they haf played us both. i nvr said anything to dem.
(aft i read this, i was like stop the bullshit lah. god, i even haf proof n witnesses lah if u want, n u believe ur crap? haha, ur ego is dat big huh? i delete his msg n din reply. at that moment, i was fuckingly pissed, bt at the same time, i noe dat i dun haf to say anything. the truth is out there. we both knoe wat happened, wat has been said n done, n wat was nvr said n done. i dun need to defend myself like he is, coz i m nt the guilty one here. plus, given how big ur ego is, u still wun realise the shit u r talking abt, n we will juz be wasting time. n now, i cnt be bothered.)
him: this is y i'm telling you, dun be close to them. deu believe anything they say.
him: in fact, get away frm them. all of them.
him: ppl in sch wants it to happen for the sake of it happening.
(n then i went... huh? wat the shit is dis guy talking abt? he has lots of best frens n very2 gd frens in there. he has 6 god-mummys n now he's telling me that i shld juz stay away frm them coz they r bad? wat the hell is he talking abt? has he lost his senses? he's practically a hypocrite to them!)
so nope... i din reply. funny tho, i tot i wld be sad n depressed, coz my last chnce at finding a guy is now officially over. bt no. mean, yes i was fuckingly pissed at his accusations, i mean who wldnt rite? bt at the same time, i felt relieved. so relieved dat i felt i cld fly! i tink i may haf lost my senses too. i ges for soooooooo long, i've been constantly preparing myself for him. u noe, kena sabar, compromising, giving, bla bla bla bla bla bla, given ihs character n all. n now, wen i realise its nt gonna happen, i felt a burden is lift off me!! yeay!!!!!!!!!!!!! n i ges its gd to noe dat this is finally, officially over. i mean a proper closure. i dun get that wif any of the guys man. i tink he's like the first to haf a proper closure!
n its also at this point i tink to myself, kin, i tink u haf no more emotions for guys lah!
ok... so for all of u who's tinking dat the story is over.... well... nt so fast.
PART 2 OF THE STORY:
on a sunday, ard for days after the big closure, i tink it was on the 6th of jan, or sumting like dat, i went to mustafa ctr wif my family. first time thr. i noe u r thinking, god kin, loser! so every1 was thr except for dad n along, since she's nt family animore (hahaha! juz kidding lah! gotch along!) so we were like pusing n pusing that place n i got like super tired n stoned. u noe how i look like wen i'm stoned. BUSUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! so we were abt to go off wen mahathir wanted to go to the toys section wic is besides the female section which is xactly at the point of link between mustafa n i tink serangoon plaza (i honestly dunno wats the plc name) so mum was sitting down sumwhr looking at the bajus n stuffs n i was ike going round n round the bajus stuff, stoning. i came to look at this baju2 kurung section n contemplate on buying for myself. n den tinking nah.. i've got lots...
n den suddenly, frm the corner of my eyes, i saw this guy walking towards me, smiling. i turn n look bt din see. well.... lets juz say, i'm pretty blind. as in i dun see ppl (nt dat i see dead ppl) n wen i stone... i m very blind. so it din register to me. until he opened up my mouth n said "wat r u doing here?"
aahhhhhhhhhhh... it's him. now i get it. bt surprise, surprise, i wasnt surprise, surprise. i was like, still wif my stone face. so i said " wat r YOU doing here?"
him: i'm wif my frens (bt i dun c anybody), u?
me: i'm wif my mum n family.
him: wat r u doing here still? its late. dun u haf to werk tmr?
for the record, its only 11pm.
me: dun YOU haf to werk tmr?
him: (smiling) well... i cn always get off werk...
me: (i juz gave a smirk n shrug)
him: bt seriously kin, its late. u shld b hm oready. tmr's the start of the week n u'd be tired. n its past 11. rmbr wat i said abt being hm by 11?
me: (i tink this guy is nuts. totally motally nuts! wat the hell is he talking abt? he is acting like everything is normal. he was smiling n grinning widely like mad, like he's happy to find me here, n he's talking abt its late, n my curfew dat he set to b hm by 11 dat i wld nvr haf followed unless he'a my husband! he's crazyyyyyyyyyy! the only normal thing to do is of coz, walked off)
n den i passed by this 2 guys. kids may i add. n den i noe.
me: oh, u rnt wif ur frens. u r wif ur "adik2"
i cn be bitchy if i want to. trust me! i walked over to my mum, tinking, hm.. shld i let her noe... wat do i do? wat do i do????? n den..
me: D, u wanna say hi to my mum?
him: she's here? whr is she? i wanna say hi.
me: (pointing to my mum, he walks over) mum, roydi's here. this is roydi.
my mum had to be classicn turned n he jaws practically drop by 5 inches n her eyes grew to another 5 cm in diameters. i looked at my feet. n tot, wat the hell did u juz do kin?!
him: cik, apa kabar cik? cik sihat? (nt fair! he stole my line!!!!)
mum: sihat alhamdulillah, roydi sihat?
him:alhamdulillah cik, sihat.
mum: dgn siapa? family?
him: tk dgn kwn2.
den amira came to ask my mum sumting, conversations cut (thank god!), he walked over to his 'adik2'. my mum started to smile n grin like mad. n i thought, dear God, y did u haf to do this? y now? n den he had to go coz his adik2 wanted to go to the mustafa ctr side.
him: cik, saya jln dulu ye
mum: yelah, bye!
him: bye. err... kin.... bye! (still smiling widely) i juz put up my hand. i m so stoned i tink waving wil be suc a chore.
there u go. so i've met his family. he met mine. both at n indian plc! hahahahahahahahah!
OK PART 3:
after the whole thing, he always kinda dedicate his msn nick to me. rite aft it happened, his nick said "we wanna hear, what we wanna hear... that's just humans..."
den afetr dat sum shit i cnt remeber, bt after the accidental met at mustafa he din write anything on his msn nick,juz his name. den tings like stressed @ werk, coz usually he'll come to me wen his stress or i'd ask, n den i'll help him out. n den comes one day, he put "andainya kita terus bersama, belum tentu kita bahagia, selagi tidak kau ubah cara hidupmu"
DAT PISSED ME OFF AGAIN! WHO THE FUCK DOES HE THINK HE IS, TO BE SAYING THINGS LIKE DAT! WHO THE HELL IS HE TO JUDGE ME? CARA HIDUP? WATS WRONG WIF MY CARA HIDUP????!
i got pisseed, i tried to ignore, well i did. sum tings happen between jonet n me, n den i wrote a nick dedicated to jonet. bt dats me, i even haf dedication for heath ledger. the late heath ledger... *sob*sob*
n den he says: its like having my heart totally ripped off...
WATEVA! Like i said, he's crazy.
ok, so dats the whole story. i've got other stories tho. i'll publish it later. hopefully it wun take 3 weeks! ;p
ciaoz!